I really, really don't know how to face you now.
I feel so embarrassed.
I know that the person you like isn't me.


I'm going to ask you later, on whether if you'll be going.
I know you will not go.


I didn't see you yesterday.
I waited for so long. I stayed till so late, just to see you.
I dont know why, but everytime when I didn't see you, I'll lose all my mood.
I've been thinking about you day and night.

I can't sleep, I can't eat.
I don't know whats wrong.
All I can do, is to think about you.

Yet, deep down, I know that you do not have any feelings for me.
Is that true?

Yes, I think it is.


You do not like me.
Its impossible between us.
You will never ever like someone like me.

I just know it.


Well. I think I've fallen for you.
I can't forget the way you send me home and all.
I mean, okay, not really send home. Just send me to my block & all, but I think it means a lot.

You're a good guy, i know that.
But I'm afraid that I'm thinking too much again.

Yes. I am thinking too much.
Everything is just pure coincidence. You saw me and walked with me, cos' you treated me as a normal friend.
You wanted to talk to me first, cos you wanted to become friends with me.
You do not like me at all.
You treat me as a normal friend, and I shall treat you like one too.

Its impossible between us.
I just know it.
You will never want someone like me.

Tell me why I have such an affinity with J names again.


Oh wow.
Now you're trying to control who I'm going out with?
Wtf.

First I had to choose between my brothers and you.
Next, its my sister.
Now, my friends.

What next?


I think about all the things you did to me.
Like how you could actually leave me alone last time, and pretend that you don't know anything.
How you can actually fall in love with another girl during your goddamn camp. And how you could actually cheat on me like that.
I think, and tears starts falling down.
Although I feel sad and whatever, I don't talk to you or confront you about it anymore.

Then why are you actually still doing that to me?

You do not know me.